When I started this LJ account, I was just a young and bored kid. I don't even remember the reasons I started this. I guess I just thought I was hilarious and people would find my posts hilarious, in addition to I would get a kick out of trolling anyone who took this blog seriously (surprisingly, there seem to be a lot of people who think this is real).
I am not a kid anymore, and as I've gotten older, I've realized that a lot of my posts are hurtful, and flat out insensitive. While some may argue that this is the Internet and if people get offended it's not my problem, that isn't true. I would never say this stuff in person, so there is absolutely no reason why I should say it online. The statements I've made (making fun of kids with cancer, saying racist slurs, etc) is something I deeply regret doing, and even if they were jokes, that doesn't change the fact that I said something hurtful and wrong.
I know not everyone will agree with me. That's alright, I'm not here to debate, I'm here to apologize. I do not believe any of the statements I made when I was young and I don't want to encourage the use of these foul words. I thought about just deleting the entries and never speaking of them again, but I feel like that would be trying to cover up what I did.
Again, I am deeply and truly sorry! For the record, this is a FAKE blog and the 'ugly' girl doesn't exist and none of these situations ever happened.
Hello everyone. Not that any of you will care, but I am in the process of writing a book. The book will document my life and struggles of being ugly. This book will make you think and feel emotions you never thought you could feel. All you good looking and average looking people will finally be able to understand what it is like what fugs such as myself go through every day. You write me messages telling me that beauty is only skin deep... well, try saying that when you get treated differently.
Perfect example. My cousin is just OMG HOTT. She is skinny, tan, naturally big breasted and has perfect long, golden hair. She has a smile that makes men melt and eyes that shine brighter than the moon. With this beauty of hers, she hasn't had to work for anything. She gets everything handed to her, everyone tries to please her and she has a ton of friends. Even if she says something mind numbly stupid, or does something wrong, no one gives a shit, she's beautiful so anything she does wrong is excused.
What about me? I work my ass off for a shitty paycheck at the end of the week. People make fun of me, throw stuff at me, draw comics about what I would look like as giant green dinosaur... I do all the work yet get absolutely no credit. Girls only want to hang out with me so they'll look better in comparison, thus landing them many dates while I spend my nights with Ben and Jerry... the ice cream.
To all you people who say you don't judge based on looks, you're full of shit. If a man comes into a store looking rough and gross, you aren't going to want to be near him or have anything to do with him, even if he's a nice person. If a tall, dark and hansom guy walks into that store, you'll smile at him and think nothing bad of him, even if he's stealing condoms while you aren't looking.
Enough preaching. I'm sick of repeating myself. If my book gets published than you will see what I mean.
Hello all. I haven't written in a while. That is because I went on a journey of self disscovery.
I traveled far and met many people. Almost all of those people were rude and scared of me. But some weren't so bad. The blind people couldn't see me so they were nice.
I went looking for answers and tried to convince myself that beauty is on the inside.
But I was wrong.
Being ugly sucks. People treat you worse if you're ugly, while good looking people get treated with respect and royality even if they don't deserve it. So to all of you people who say "Beauty is on the inside" or "beauty is only skin deep", you're full of shit. Infact, you're most likely ugly too, cause only ugly people say that stupid saying.
On my journey I learned that being beautiful is the way to go, and I've been saving up my money for plastic surgery. I WILL get it, eventually... I have a while to go but hopfully not TOO long. I will be bautiful, or atleast, acceptable.
Today on my way home from my discorvery, a kid threw his icecream at me and said I made him lose his appitite. I cried and wet myself in the process.
WHY DID I HAVE TO BE BORN SO FUCKING UGLY?!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Music: I'm an ugly girl
I'd like to thank Christopher Graham for donating ONE DOLLAR TO ME!! Seriously! I almost crapped my pants when I saw that! First time anyone has EVER given me money!!
If you people want to help donate to my plastic surgry, please do. If everyone only donated just one dollar, I would have enough money in no time. COME ON PEOPLE! I DONT WANNA DIE A VIRGIN :( I'll even post a before and after picture and have proof so you know I didn't just grab a random picture of the inernet.
In other news, today while I was walking down the street I looked in a puddle and noticed that I had been walking around all day with spinitch in my teeth.
WHYYYYY AMMMMMM IIIII UGLYYYYYYYYYYYY?!!!!!!!!!!
Okay... I've noticed that my journal has become popular... in a bad way, mostly. I've been getting mean comments, and because of that I've tried to starve myself until I died. But I go way too hungry and devoured everything in my fridge :( Now I feel fat AND ugly!!
So that's why I haven't posted anything. But I will now... even thought THE WORLD IS BEING MEAN TO ME!
I'm trying to get plastic surgry. I'm a bit short, though. If you want, you can donate just a dollar and that would help.
COME ON PEOPLE! IM FUCKING UGLY! JUST ONE DOLLAR!! If I get enough by the end of the month, I shall post a before and after photo. I'll even have proof so you'll know I didn't just steal a picture off the web. I SERIOUSLY NEED THIS SURGRY BEFORE PRESIDENT BUSH EXICUTES ME!
I feel so greesy :-/
|» New years|
I wasn't invited to the New Years Party at work. The boss said that bird poop cleaners aren't alowed to come to the party. But Bob got to go!! He cleans that bird shit too!! I asked Bob about it and he threw his bucket of bird shit on my face. It smelled really really bad :(
So I bought some fire works...though it was kinda hard cause people kept aiming their fireworks at me while I was leaving the store. Fucking teenagers, thinking they OWN the parking lot and can shoot anyone with their fire works! BAH TO THEM!
My New Years Resolution:
1. Stop thinking about suaside
2. Look better
3. Get plastic surgery
4. Get Married
5. Have Sex
6. Lose my Virginity
7. Have sex
8. Have an orgy
9. Take it in the back door
10. Have kids
11. Kill all the jerks who called me ugly
and 12., to like me for who I am.
Fugly duckling T_T
|» CHRISTMAS SUCKS!!!!!|
No one got me anything. So I bought myself some booze and a new razor, cause my old one is dull. The old one DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL THE PAIN THAT I DESIRE SO I FORGET THIS HELLISH WORLD OF PAIN AND TORTURE!!!!!!!
I called my mom. She said that if I ever called her again that she was gonna trace the number, come down to my house and hogtie me, then throw me out in the highway traffic so I would get run over. Before she hung up, I told her I loved her and Merry Christmas. But I don't think she cares...
WHY MUST I GO ON LIVING?! LIVING IN THIS PAIN! THERES NOTHING WORTH LIVING!!!
But then I saw Dr.Phil and I felt better about my hair because they were talking about cancer kids. And they were bald. HAHA BALD! WHAT LOSERS! HOW DO YOU LIKE THEM APPLES HUH?!
...but their faces weren't as ugly as mine :(
Halloween was going GREAT! I even got invited to a party! But some JACKASS who was at the party ratted me out! He told everyone that I wasn't wearing a costume! So they made me bob for apples, even when I couldn't breathe they didn't remove my head from the water :( It hurt, and I swear I saw an angel, but then the pulled be up and threw me out of the house.
I had a bruise on my face. It makes me look worse.
I wrote a poem about my face again:
I look Ugly
But that's okay
You say I'm fugly
I look ugly everday
Ouch! my splean!
You shot me with your gun
ITS HURTS TO BE UGLY!!!!!!!1!
IT HURTS TO BE SHOT!
STOP CALLING ME FUGLY!!!!!
STOP THROWING ME IN THE BOX!!!!11
GOD KILL ME!!! :(
Well, I haven't written anything in a while, my dear diary. That is because I was mistaken to be someone I wasn't. People thought the had discovered Lockness Monster just because I was swimming in the lake. So I was held captive for a while.|
Anyway, it's halloween... the one day I actually like, cause people think I'm in a costume and don't think I'm scary! Plus I get free candy :)
So, it sucked that I was held captive, but atleast I don't have to waste money on a cheap ass halloween costume.
YEAAA HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW, BITCHES!
...But I'll be ugly tomorrow...
Today I went to the shrink. I had to pay extra and wear a paper bag over my head, but atleast this stupid shrink will help me get over killing myself.
Anyway, I cut little holes in the bag so I could see, and the shrink looks like a single mother who has a secound job as a phone sex operator. Anyways, she recomended I get plastic surgery. So I guess thats what I'm going to do.
I want to look like Carmen Electra!
GAH! SO UGLY, I AM!